Thursday, October 30, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Levi: The Love of My Eternity (My fave true story)
Just for the record, I am a boy. I fell in love with a boy. If you’re homophobic, then please, do me the favor of not reading this and please don’t leave me you’re hate comments. I don’t care.
My name is Kiyoshi, and I’m 17 years old. I met Levi when I was a mere two years old. He was four. We met because my father and his mother were having an affair with eachother. My momma ended up leaving, and Levi’s mother ended up leaving too. Instead of hating eachother, we were polite to eachother. Through the years, we would ocassionally say hi, maybe have a play date or two.
We didn’t really start getting close until I was eight, and he was ten. We stuck to eachother like glue. Okay, more like I stuck to him like glue, and he was the one trying to pry us apart. As much as he treated me like shit, I knew he didn’t mind me all in all. He could’ve gotten rid of me anytime he wanted. He never did. He just acted annoyed by my sweet gestures, like a typical ‘manly man’.
I’ve always known that I wanted Levi to be my ‘boyfriend’, and when I was nine, I told him that I was going to marry him one day. He looked at me, laughed, called me an idiot, and said I was absurd. I stuck to my statement.
As time progressed, Levi became more closed off and confined to his own self, and I was the opposite. I blurted out everything about my life, not a bit embarrased, scared, or worried that he would judge me. He always listened, never complained.
And the times that I would show up at his house during the middle of night, sobbing and barely able to stand, he would engulf me in his embrace, rocking me back and forth and kissing my forehead until the tears stopped. After I would stop, he would let go, pretend none of it happened, and I wouldn’t dare bring it up. It was something that didn’t need to be talked about.
I’m not going to lie. The things he would say to me weren’t pleasant, and some people would wonder why I even hung around him, but whatever came out of his mouth, I would hear differently. If he said, “You’re a fucking dumbass,” when I walked to his house late at night, I would hear it as, “That was dangerous. You could’ve gotten hurt.” As he’s said to me before, I knew his unspoken words and emotions.
When I was 14, my brother Leiko (I know it’s a disrespected girl’s name. That’s how much of a meanie my dad was, giving him a name like that) passed away. I got into a lot of..Bad things. Though through all those bad things, I found what I thought was love with a boy named Matt. He meant the world to me.
At a certain point in my life, when I was 15, I was admitted to a rehabilitation center. Levi was very aware of my addictions (they don’t need to be named), and he was less than pleased. He told my father, and my father stuck me in rehab.
I beat my addictions. Things were back to normal for a very little while. Life was okay. Then when I was 16, he was 18, he was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma cancer. He didn’t talk for an entire month. He barely acknowledged me.
When he finally pulled himself together and started talking again, and he was changed. The old, pessimistic, quite, tempermental Levi was attempting to smile at me, encourage me, and he was working so hard on his temper. It was confusing and hard to adjust to, but I got used to it.
A lot happened within a month of him having cancer. His girlfriend broke up with him because of the loss of his hair (what a bitch, right?), my boyfriend of two years got a girl pregnant and was with another girl also (I ended up breaking up with him, and that didn’t end well, but I would prefer not to talk about that), I met my and Levi’s half-brother for the first time (yes, I know I didn’t mention that before. Levi’s mother got pregnant by my father, and you know what happened. Out popped a baby, said baby was adopted, I didn’t try to know him.), and oh gosh. It was stressful.
Things slowly started getting better. After one lot of chemo, he was cancer free. Things were great. We were closer than ever. I was so happy. Everything was okay. But then the cancer came back. Cancer is a big hereditary thing in his family, by the way. His aunt, grandpa, and uncle died of cancer.
I was 17 (the age I am now), and he was 19. In August, my father left, and I was left with my uncle. The very same week, I was in the hospital due to my own problems (they were rather minor compared to cancer, mind you. I was only in there for about a week, so no need to talk about that), and Levi was with me the entire time. We were just laying in a bed together (which we got in trouble for later) because I was crying, and he was trying to calm me down, and out of nowhere, he kissed me.
This was a HUGE surprise to me. I had been in love with Levi for so long. After all, he was the one I wanted to marry when I was a kid, and I’ll tell you, that feeling was still there. Even while being with Matt, my feelings for Levi were barely stifled. My love for Levi could and would not be ignored. It was impossible.
After the kiss, he left the room. He left me there the whole night, my own thoughts eating me alive. For all I had known, he was straight. I was so confused.
The next day, he came back in the room, and we just stared at eachother for what seemed like an eternity, though it was only a few minutes, as I remember from looking at the clock. It was so pin drop silent that my heart beat sounded like the ticking of a clock. It was torture.
He approached me with slow steps. I can still imagine what it felt like. It seemed like he was in slow motion, taking forever to get by my side. His hand reached out for me, and I just stared. The hand fell upon the top of my head, his slender fingers ruffling my black locks of hair, and then he tilted his head to the side with a smile, his gorgeous green eyes crinkling at the corners of his eyes in the cutest way. Then he leaned forward, his lips touching mine again for the second time in my life.
No words were spoken. We just kissed, then he laid in the bed with me. We talked the next day. He admitted he’d always felt something different for me, and that he knew now for sure that he was in love with me. I’m telling you, those two kisses changed the world for me. You know how you hear about that one kiss that makes your heart beat fast, seems like fireworks are blowing up all around you, makes you nervous, makes you happy, makes you want to throw up, and makes you want to scream all at the same time? Those kisses were exactly like that. Levi was the love of my life. I knew that for sure.
By October, we were completely in love. Beyond normality. And it wasn’t that the first few months were exciting, and then the love slowly faded. We were just creating a base for our love then. We knew that we were going to be together forever. We weren’t just lovers or boyfriends. We were best friends. Our lives were made to be shared with eachother. October 8th, he proposed. I said yes.
Mid November, he was tested to see if his chemo had done the job, and he was cancer free. It was the most exciting news I’d ever heard. I was going to marry Levi one day. We were going to share our lives together. We were going to grow old together. We would forever be in eachother’s company, supporting eachother through everything.
Come late December, he was getting so sick. His cancer had come back, even though it had only been about a month since he had been proclaimed cancer free. Worst news of my life. The doctors didn’t think he had much of a chance of pulling through.
Needless to say, we spent as much time as we could together, though this time it was bad. He was constantly sick, and his body wasn’t taking the chemo well. At times, he could barely get up. He was of course forced to stay in the hospital because of that, and then due to the situation (and the fact that his father his a surgeon at that hospital), they were offering to put him on Hospice. Levi didn’t want that.
Time passed. Come January 2nd, I got a call. His vitals were going down. It wasn’t going to be long, likely. I rushed over to the hospital to see him. I stayed with him, holding his hand tightly, and then he made me a promise. He said, “Kiyoshi, I swear to you that when I pass, I will wait outside Heaven’s gates for you. I’ll stay outside, growing old as you do, and the moment you pass on, we’ll go into Heaven together, and everything will be perfect. We’ll have our first rock in a rocking chair together as an old couple, and I will continuously tell you how beautiful you are.”
And then the song that he would always sing to me when he thought I was asleep, he sang. “Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you’re mine. Just hold me tight; lay by my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. I found my place in the world. Could stare at your face for the rest of my days. Now I can breathe. Turn my insides out, and smother me. Warm and alive, I’m all over you. Would you smother me? Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone. I hold my breath and lose the feeling that I’m on my own. Hold me too tight; stay my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. When I’m alone, time goes so slow. I need you here with me. And how my mistakes have made your heart break. Still I need you here with. And baby I’m, baby I’m here.” Our last kiss happened then. It was long, soft, full of emotions. Our last “I love you”s were exchanged. And then we cried together. We cried hard. It wasn’t often to see Levi in tears. I had only seen him cry a handful of times before, unlike me, who cries just about five times every day. But these tears were different. That moment, we shared our feelings of absolute terror. The emotions in the room were the most painful I’d ever felt.
And then he slowly went. His breathing stopped, the machine’s regular beeping that I had heard for so long went flat. It was so unfamiliar. I started screaming. I screamed and begged for him to wake up. I wanted it to be a joke, a dream, anything but reality.
The reality was he had passed. I hadn’t expected it to be so soon. Actually, I hadn’t expected it to ever happen. When I was younger, crying on his shoulder, I never thought that would be gone. But now it was.
We never got married, but I’m okay with that now. I realize that marriage was just an uneccessary title for something we already knew was true. We were made for eachother, and we would be together forever. I’ll see him again one day. I’ll see him in Heaven.
And then later in January, I found a book of his poetry in his room, deep in his drawers. I’ll type up a few of his poems and put them on here. They really reflect on what he was feeling, and I feel blessed to have these now. I’m going to keep this poetry book and the ring he gave me with me forever.
My name is Kiyoshi, and I’m 17 years old. I met Levi when I was a mere two years old. He was four. We met because my father and his mother were having an affair with eachother. My momma ended up leaving, and Levi’s mother ended up leaving too. Instead of hating eachother, we were polite to eachother. Through the years, we would ocassionally say hi, maybe have a play date or two.
We didn’t really start getting close until I was eight, and he was ten. We stuck to eachother like glue. Okay, more like I stuck to him like glue, and he was the one trying to pry us apart. As much as he treated me like shit, I knew he didn’t mind me all in all. He could’ve gotten rid of me anytime he wanted. He never did. He just acted annoyed by my sweet gestures, like a typical ‘manly man’.
I’ve always known that I wanted Levi to be my ‘boyfriend’, and when I was nine, I told him that I was going to marry him one day. He looked at me, laughed, called me an idiot, and said I was absurd. I stuck to my statement.
As time progressed, Levi became more closed off and confined to his own self, and I was the opposite. I blurted out everything about my life, not a bit embarrased, scared, or worried that he would judge me. He always listened, never complained.
And the times that I would show up at his house during the middle of night, sobbing and barely able to stand, he would engulf me in his embrace, rocking me back and forth and kissing my forehead until the tears stopped. After I would stop, he would let go, pretend none of it happened, and I wouldn’t dare bring it up. It was something that didn’t need to be talked about.
I’m not going to lie. The things he would say to me weren’t pleasant, and some people would wonder why I even hung around him, but whatever came out of his mouth, I would hear differently. If he said, “You’re a fucking dumbass,” when I walked to his house late at night, I would hear it as, “That was dangerous. You could’ve gotten hurt.” As he’s said to me before, I knew his unspoken words and emotions.
When I was 14, my brother Leiko (I know it’s a disrespected girl’s name. That’s how much of a meanie my dad was, giving him a name like that) passed away. I got into a lot of..Bad things. Though through all those bad things, I found what I thought was love with a boy named Matt. He meant the world to me.
At a certain point in my life, when I was 15, I was admitted to a rehabilitation center. Levi was very aware of my addictions (they don’t need to be named), and he was less than pleased. He told my father, and my father stuck me in rehab.
I beat my addictions. Things were back to normal for a very little while. Life was okay. Then when I was 16, he was 18, he was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma cancer. He didn’t talk for an entire month. He barely acknowledged me.
When he finally pulled himself together and started talking again, and he was changed. The old, pessimistic, quite, tempermental Levi was attempting to smile at me, encourage me, and he was working so hard on his temper. It was confusing and hard to adjust to, but I got used to it.
A lot happened within a month of him having cancer. His girlfriend broke up with him because of the loss of his hair (what a bitch, right?), my boyfriend of two years got a girl pregnant and was with another girl also (I ended up breaking up with him, and that didn’t end well, but I would prefer not to talk about that), I met my and Levi’s half-brother for the first time (yes, I know I didn’t mention that before. Levi’s mother got pregnant by my father, and you know what happened. Out popped a baby, said baby was adopted, I didn’t try to know him.), and oh gosh. It was stressful.
Things slowly started getting better. After one lot of chemo, he was cancer free. Things were great. We were closer than ever. I was so happy. Everything was okay. But then the cancer came back. Cancer is a big hereditary thing in his family, by the way. His aunt, grandpa, and uncle died of cancer.
I was 17 (the age I am now), and he was 19. In August, my father left, and I was left with my uncle. The very same week, I was in the hospital due to my own problems (they were rather minor compared to cancer, mind you. I was only in there for about a week, so no need to talk about that), and Levi was with me the entire time. We were just laying in a bed together (which we got in trouble for later) because I was crying, and he was trying to calm me down, and out of nowhere, he kissed me.
This was a HUGE surprise to me. I had been in love with Levi for so long. After all, he was the one I wanted to marry when I was a kid, and I’ll tell you, that feeling was still there. Even while being with Matt, my feelings for Levi were barely stifled. My love for Levi could and would not be ignored. It was impossible.
After the kiss, he left the room. He left me there the whole night, my own thoughts eating me alive. For all I had known, he was straight. I was so confused.
The next day, he came back in the room, and we just stared at eachother for what seemed like an eternity, though it was only a few minutes, as I remember from looking at the clock. It was so pin drop silent that my heart beat sounded like the ticking of a clock. It was torture.
He approached me with slow steps. I can still imagine what it felt like. It seemed like he was in slow motion, taking forever to get by my side. His hand reached out for me, and I just stared. The hand fell upon the top of my head, his slender fingers ruffling my black locks of hair, and then he tilted his head to the side with a smile, his gorgeous green eyes crinkling at the corners of his eyes in the cutest way. Then he leaned forward, his lips touching mine again for the second time in my life.
No words were spoken. We just kissed, then he laid in the bed with me. We talked the next day. He admitted he’d always felt something different for me, and that he knew now for sure that he was in love with me. I’m telling you, those two kisses changed the world for me. You know how you hear about that one kiss that makes your heart beat fast, seems like fireworks are blowing up all around you, makes you nervous, makes you happy, makes you want to throw up, and makes you want to scream all at the same time? Those kisses were exactly like that. Levi was the love of my life. I knew that for sure.
By October, we were completely in love. Beyond normality. And it wasn’t that the first few months were exciting, and then the love slowly faded. We were just creating a base for our love then. We knew that we were going to be together forever. We weren’t just lovers or boyfriends. We were best friends. Our lives were made to be shared with eachother. October 8th, he proposed. I said yes.
Mid November, he was tested to see if his chemo had done the job, and he was cancer free. It was the most exciting news I’d ever heard. I was going to marry Levi one day. We were going to share our lives together. We were going to grow old together. We would forever be in eachother’s company, supporting eachother through everything.
Come late December, he was getting so sick. His cancer had come back, even though it had only been about a month since he had been proclaimed cancer free. Worst news of my life. The doctors didn’t think he had much of a chance of pulling through.
Needless to say, we spent as much time as we could together, though this time it was bad. He was constantly sick, and his body wasn’t taking the chemo well. At times, he could barely get up. He was of course forced to stay in the hospital because of that, and then due to the situation (and the fact that his father his a surgeon at that hospital), they were offering to put him on Hospice. Levi didn’t want that.
Time passed. Come January 2nd, I got a call. His vitals were going down. It wasn’t going to be long, likely. I rushed over to the hospital to see him. I stayed with him, holding his hand tightly, and then he made me a promise. He said, “Kiyoshi, I swear to you that when I pass, I will wait outside Heaven’s gates for you. I’ll stay outside, growing old as you do, and the moment you pass on, we’ll go into Heaven together, and everything will be perfect. We’ll have our first rock in a rocking chair together as an old couple, and I will continuously tell you how beautiful you are.”
And then the song that he would always sing to me when he thought I was asleep, he sang. “Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. Surely you can take some comfort knowing that you’re mine. Just hold me tight; lay by my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. I found my place in the world. Could stare at your face for the rest of my days. Now I can breathe. Turn my insides out, and smother me. Warm and alive, I’m all over you. Would you smother me? Let me be the one who never leaves you all alone. I hold my breath and lose the feeling that I’m on my own. Hold me too tight; stay my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time. When I’m alone, time goes so slow. I need you here with me. And how my mistakes have made your heart break. Still I need you here with. And baby I’m, baby I’m here.” Our last kiss happened then. It was long, soft, full of emotions. Our last “I love you”s were exchanged. And then we cried together. We cried hard. It wasn’t often to see Levi in tears. I had only seen him cry a handful of times before, unlike me, who cries just about five times every day. But these tears were different. That moment, we shared our feelings of absolute terror. The emotions in the room were the most painful I’d ever felt.
And then he slowly went. His breathing stopped, the machine’s regular beeping that I had heard for so long went flat. It was so unfamiliar. I started screaming. I screamed and begged for him to wake up. I wanted it to be a joke, a dream, anything but reality.
The reality was he had passed. I hadn’t expected it to be so soon. Actually, I hadn’t expected it to ever happen. When I was younger, crying on his shoulder, I never thought that would be gone. But now it was.
We never got married, but I’m okay with that now. I realize that marriage was just an uneccessary title for something we already knew was true. We were made for eachother, and we would be together forever. I’ll see him again one day. I’ll see him in Heaven.
And then later in January, I found a book of his poetry in his room, deep in his drawers. I’ll type up a few of his poems and put them on here. They really reflect on what he was feeling, and I feel blessed to have these now. I’m going to keep this poetry book and the ring he gave me with me forever.
Firehouse - I Live My Life For You lyrics
Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus
I live my life for you
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
Chorus
I live my life for you
At Last Lyrics by Etta James
At last, my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Oh, yeah, at last
The skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clovers
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile
Oh, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine
At last
P\S: My dear fave song.
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Oh, yeah, at last
The skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clovers
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile
Oh, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine
At last
P\S: My dear fave song.
I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE (Barbra Streisand & Bryan Adams)
I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin
This time it's different, dah dah dah dah
It's all because of you, dah dah dah dah
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
(Chorus)
This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh
Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life
(Repeat Chorus)
Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
27th October 08
Sa Celebrate my birthday sama my daling.Hehe.(Imissyou)Watching movie together.Ate d Secret Recipe && Kopitiam dgn dia mmg makes me crazy.In the same time makes me miss dia now!! Daling!! Miss you. Im crazy over you babe. I miss the way u talk with me.Daling sa cute.
P/S: Cant tel u more.Hehe
Thursday, October 23, 2008
From My Sunshine:]
2 LEAVES
1 HEARTScorpio:
The Intense.
1.Very Energetic,Intelligent(Pui).Can Be Jealousy or Possessive(Oops).Hardworking,Great Kisser(Pui).Can Become Obsesrve or SECRETIVE.Holds Grudges.Attractive(I Agree).Determined.Loves Being In Long Relationship(Entah Btl Ka X).Talkactive.Romantic.Can Beself Centred At Times.Passionate & Emo.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
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Friday, October 17, 2008
Nice poem.
just because i'm smiling,
doesn't mean i'm smiling inside.
just because i'm laughing,
doesn't mean i'm fine.
just because i'm talking,
doesn't mean i'm not yelling in my mind.
just because i'm crying,
doesn't mean i'm sad.
just because i'm yelling,
doesn't mean i'm mad.
and just because i'm acting,
doesn't mean i'm glad.
just because i say "i'm over you"
,doesn't mean it's true.
just because you say "i love you",
oesn't mean it's true.
and when i say "i miss you",
it will always be the truth.
I get this sweet poem from imAgoodBIFFLE's profile
http://www.quizilla.com/user/imAgoodBIFFLE/profile/
doesn't mean i'm smiling inside.
just because i'm laughing,
doesn't mean i'm fine.
just because i'm talking,
doesn't mean i'm not yelling in my mind.
just because i'm crying,
doesn't mean i'm sad.
just because i'm yelling,
doesn't mean i'm mad.
and just because i'm acting,
doesn't mean i'm glad.
just because i say "i'm over you"
,doesn't mean it's true.
just because you say "i love you",
oesn't mean it's true.
and when i say "i miss you",
it will always be the truth.
I get this sweet poem from imAgoodBIFFLE's profile
http://www.quizilla.com/user/imAgoodBIFFLE/profile/
I'am.
This little girl feels so alone in this world. Nobody knows how she really feels inside. She wants to scream but all she can do is cry. She feels so lost and afraid, she doesn't know what to do and whatever she does she wonders if it is right or wrong. This little girl wants to be free and happy, this little girl is me.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
27 ways to make a girl smile . . . . .
*1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hott, fine or sexy.
*2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second.
*3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
*4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
*5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.
*6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
*7 . Recognize the small things they usually mean the most.
*8 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
*9 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
*10 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
*11 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
*12 . Play with her hair.
*13 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
*14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
*15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
*16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
*17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
*18. Carve your names into a Tree.
*19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
*20 . Give her piggyback rides.
*21 . Bring her Flowers just because.
*22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
*23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
*24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
*25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
*26 . Kiss her in the rain.
*27 . If your in love with her.Tell her.
Chinese + English = Chinglish
You might like it. This is hilarious... ..even an Englishman could not construct sentences using numeric, which is exclusive only to Malaysians and Singaporeans.
Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10. Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what he came up with.....
1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. Next day I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2him but I don't know what he 1.
From: Fedilia Sandra Fedilis.
Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10. Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1. This is what he came up with.....
1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away. 10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. Next day I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand. I am so nice 2him but I don't know what he 1.
From: Fedilia Sandra Fedilis.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Are you a true Sabahan?_?
You are a true Sabahan when...
1) You drive at right lane of the road, with a speed of only 50 KM/H. If people horn behind you, you still don't know what's wrong.
2) You have the luxury of working from 8 AM to 5 PM (get off work punctually).
3) You don't believe that there is any "clean" politician in Sabah .
4) You feel "obligated" to reach the top of Mount Kinabalu at least once in a lifetime.
5) You prefer a big car than a big house (probably you can't drive a big house around to show off).
6) You wear slipper and short wherever you go, even in city.
7) You still think that Labuan belongs to Sabah .
8) You will not go to any FREE seminar / function that has no food or refreshment.
9) You don't care about service. You just want things cheap, cheap, cheap.
10) You know where to get your candles and torch light quickly in the total darkness (due to training by frequent blackout).
11) You know what "aramaitiee" means...
12) You shout "referee bodoh" and at the same time throw mineral water bottles on the pitch during a football match at Likas Stadium..
13) Your Timorese maid ran away with her lover, taking your money or jewellery along..
14) You doubt someone's mykad wether it is real or fake..
15) Your favourite assemblyman whom you vote and supported all this while...gambled away and lost a whopping 60 million ringgit in a London casino..
16) You go inside a karaoke at 12 pm and realise that the place is still open at 5 am...
17) You come across a supposedly local person but with a very foreign accent..
18) You cannot vote in an election because someone has voted on behalf of you...
19) You own a bakakuk
Tambah.... you are a Sabahan if u say and understand these words....
3) You don't believe that there is any "clean" politician in Sabah .
4) You feel "obligated" to reach the top of Mount Kinabalu at least once in a lifetime.
5) You prefer a big car than a big house (probably you can't drive a big house around to show off).
6) You wear slipper and short wherever you go, even in city.
7) You still think that Labuan belongs to Sabah .
8) You will not go to any FREE seminar / function that has no food or refreshment.
9) You don't care about service. You just want things cheap, cheap, cheap.
10) You know where to get your candles and torch light quickly in the total darkness (due to training by frequent blackout).
11) You know what "aramaitiee" means...
12) You shout "referee bodoh" and at the same time throw mineral water bottles on the pitch during a football match at Likas Stadium..
13) Your Timorese maid ran away with her lover, taking your money or jewellery along..
14) You doubt someone's mykad wether it is real or fake..
15) Your favourite assemblyman whom you vote and supported all this while...gambled away and lost a whopping 60 million ringgit in a London casino..
16) You go inside a karaoke at 12 pm and realise that the place is still open at 5 am...
17) You come across a supposedly local person but with a very foreign accent..
18) You cannot vote in an election because someone has voted on behalf of you...
19) You own a bakakuk
Tambah.... you are a Sabahan if u say and understand these words....
1. tuuuna/ saaaana - points with the lips - (there-- at a distance)(the longer the 'tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuna / saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaana' the further the place is.)
2. limpas (to pass/walk by - Maaf, saya > limpas dulu? Excuse me, can I passby?
3. palui (stupid, duh! )
4. tapuk (to hide )
5. bida (ugly)
6. bubut (as in proper malay- "kejar", to chase)
7. sakai (ignorant, uncivilized, "hoosier")
8. andang-andang (that's how it is)
9. sapak (kasi campur/gaul --utk masakan-to mix as in cooking)
10. inda/tia (short form of "tidak" - not, no)
11. wicin (another brand of msg as in "aji-no- moto" - a seasoning or food enhancer)
4. tapuk (to hide )
5. bida (ugly)
6. bubut (as in proper malay- "kejar", to chase)
7. sakai (ignorant, uncivilized, "hoosier")
8. andang-andang (that's how it is)
9. sapak (kasi campur/gaul --utk masakan-to mix as in cooking)
10. inda/tia (short form of "tidak" - not, no)
11. wicin (another brand of msg as in "aji-no- moto" - a seasoning or food enhancer)
12. talampau (proper malay - "terlampau"- too much)
13. takajut (proper malay - "terkejut" - shocked, startled)
14. siorang (proper malay -"kami"/ "saya-orang" - us, we)
15. ngam-ngam (proper malay "kebetulan" - exact, at that time)
16. mangkali (proper malay "barangkali" - maybe, perhaps)
17. kamarin (proper malay "kelmarin" - yesterday)
18. kanapa (proper malay "kenapa" - why)
19. gia (___expression - "is it?")
20. bah (___expression - "ok!")
21. ah? (question, "Apa?" What?)
22. kici/kicil (proper malay "kecil" - small)
23. basar (proper malay "besar" - big, huge)
24. siok (___expression/description, proper malay "seronok" - enjoyable, great, etc-)
25. urang ("orang" - people; sometimes used "diurang" - them, they)
26. karing ("kering" - dry)
27. umban ("humban, lempar" - throw)
28. kana ("kena"- got ie--"kena umban" --got thrown)
29. padih ("pedih" - as in "Mata saya padih/pedih!" - My eyes stings, painful)30. numbur ("nombor" - number)
31. gali ("geli" as in squeemish about something, or "gali"--gali lubang - as in Dig a hole.)
32. dorang ("dia orang/diurang" - them, they - Dorang pigi tamu. They went to the market.)
33. panat ("penat" - tired)
34. katawa ("ketawa" - laugh, laughing)
35. lanjang (a.k.a. "periuk /belanga " - pots/pans)
36. putung ("potong" - cut, slice)
37. Buduh ("bodoh" - stupid)
38. tongo/bongo ("stupido" - same as above )
39. kabaru-baruan ("kebaru-baruan"- new to something)
40. giuk (proper malay "ulat"- worm)
41. Sikui (Tembikai - watermelon)
42. Santut (Underwear)
43. celana/salana (Seluar)
44. gipit (to grip...)
45. kanapatan/kadapatan (caught red handed.. or as the malays in kl say..'kantoi')
46. kebangkalan (choked while eating..proper malay = 'tersedak')
47. ketulahan (bad karma)
48. bahai (plastic bag)
49. uinnaaa! (used to express various feelings, mostly when surprised..)
50. ging (derived from the word gang.. means kawan/member)
51. Tontolou = Uncle Johnny
52. Pantat = Butt<---tp di semenanjung,lain tuh kan ? eee... ya ba pula.. Di sabah .. belakang ..tapi di semenanjung di Depan pulak .. silap .. LOL 53. Cula = Coke or Coca-cola...lol54 Torrrrrbaik = The Best...lol 55. Bikin panas = feeling angry...HHAH - HOt kununlah..True to my roots.. I have one to contribute56. Tambirang = Don't lie.. (eg. Jangan kau tembirang)57. Sabak ---- means baru ko tau... in english = I TOLD U... 58. Kotoh ---- Means as same like Sabak... 59. Lakas = Lekas/Cepat (Faster) 60. Bobot = Vagina (Ada nama Kampung di Kota Belud - Kg. Bobot ka) 61. Balabak = Scrotum 62. Kalatiak = Ketiak (Armpit) 63. Duiiii dogo! = My goodness!! / Oh my!! 64. Seluar Katak - underwear 65. siring siring - side / on the side
13. takajut (proper malay - "terkejut" - shocked, startled)
14. siorang (proper malay -"kami"/ "saya-orang" - us, we)
15. ngam-ngam (proper malay "kebetulan" - exact, at that time)
16. mangkali (proper malay "barangkali" - maybe, perhaps)
17. kamarin (proper malay "kelmarin" - yesterday)
18. kanapa (proper malay "kenapa" - why)
19. gia (___expression - "is it?")
20. bah (___expression - "ok!")
21. ah? (question, "Apa?" What?)
22. kici/kicil (proper malay "kecil" - small)
23. basar (proper malay "besar" - big, huge)
24. siok (___expression/description, proper malay "seronok" - enjoyable, great, etc-)
25. urang ("orang" - people; sometimes used "diurang" - them, they)
26. karing ("kering" - dry)
27. umban ("humban, lempar" - throw)
28. kana ("kena"- got ie--"kena umban" --got thrown)
29. padih ("pedih" - as in "Mata saya padih/pedih!" - My eyes stings, painful)30. numbur ("nombor" - number)
31. gali ("geli" as in squeemish about something, or "gali"--gali lubang - as in Dig a hole.)
32. dorang ("dia orang/diurang" - them, they - Dorang pigi tamu. They went to the market.)
33. panat ("penat" - tired)
34. katawa ("ketawa" - laugh, laughing)
35. lanjang (a.k.a. "periuk /belanga " - pots/pans)
36. putung ("potong" - cut, slice)
37. Buduh ("bodoh" - stupid)
38. tongo/bongo ("stupido" - same as above )
39. kabaru-baruan ("kebaru-baruan"- new to something)
40. giuk (proper malay "ulat"- worm)
41. Sikui (Tembikai - watermelon)
42. Santut (Underwear)
43. celana/salana (Seluar)
44. gipit (to grip...)
45. kanapatan/kadapatan (caught red handed.. or as the malays in kl say..'kantoi')
46. kebangkalan (choked while eating..proper malay = 'tersedak')
47. ketulahan (bad karma)
48. bahai (plastic bag)
49. uinnaaa! (used to express various feelings, mostly when surprised..)
50. ging (derived from the word gang.. means kawan/member)
51. Tontolou = Uncle Johnny
52. Pantat = Butt<---tp di semenanjung,lain tuh kan ? eee... ya ba pula.. Di sabah .. belakang ..tapi di semenanjung di Depan pulak .. silap .. LOL 53. Cula = Coke or Coca-cola...lol54 Torrrrrbaik = The Best...lol 55. Bikin panas = feeling angry...HHAH - HOt kununlah..True to my roots.. I have one to contribute56. Tambirang = Don't lie.. (eg. Jangan kau tembirang)57. Sabak ---- means baru ko tau... in english = I TOLD U... 58. Kotoh ---- Means as same like Sabak... 59. Lakas = Lekas/Cepat (Faster) 60. Bobot = Vagina (Ada nama Kampung di Kota Belud - Kg. Bobot ka) 61. Balabak = Scrotum 62. Kalatiak = Ketiak (Armpit) 63. Duiiii dogo! = My goodness!! / Oh my!! 64. Seluar Katak - underwear 65. siring siring - side / on the side
66. taapun - a phrase used when unable to get the things desired
67. palis palis - touch wood
68 tachut - our version of touch wood
69. gostan - reverse
70. gohed - forward
71. ayuk - swinging movement of the arm in the marble game. can also mean to masturbate
72. taiih - shit / feaces / or just a curse word
73. kogutan - hangover
72. taiih - shit / feaces / or just a curse word
73. kogutan - hangover
74. Sepuluh Tiga (10-3) - RM10 for three cans of beer (well in those days lah)
75. muhau - crazy
76. takana - hit (BM is terkena)
77. tekuis - same like like takana
78. kapayas / tapayas - papaya
79. api api - kota kinabalu
80 (sia) bilang - said
81. skijap - soon / in a short while / later
82. tinguk - (tengok) to look
83. hari satu - monday
84. hari dua - tuesday
85. hari tiga - wednesday
86. hari ampat - thursday
87. hari lima - friday
88. hari anam - saturday
89. SOT - crazy (like me)
90. thai lingong - worse than buduh
91. karan - electricity
92. butul - in BM 'betul'
93. kama = (susah mo xplain ni ayat). Ada la satu urang selalu guna di Terawi. Contoh: Jangan kama simply means Jangan/Don't (with the intention to advice or warn the person not to do something)
94. Kasi - to make something happen/give/kalu dalam BM (beri)
95. boh - ini pun susah xplain. Ayat: Diurang ka boh yang pigi. (Merekalah yang pergi - 'boh' sebagai confirmation yang mereka lah butul2 pigi)
96. Sampalau - "tulung kasi arti/harati gia ni"
97. butul ba! - really!! (used to express surprise)
92. butul - in BM 'betul'
93. kama = (susah mo xplain ni ayat). Ada la satu urang selalu guna di Terawi. Contoh: Jangan kama simply means Jangan/Don't (with the intention to advice or warn the person not to do something)
94. Kasi - to make something happen/give/kalu dalam BM (beri)
95. boh - ini pun susah xplain. Ayat: Diurang ka boh yang pigi. (Merekalah yang pergi - 'boh' sebagai confirmation yang mereka lah butul2 pigi)
96. Sampalau - "tulung kasi arti/harati gia ni"
97. butul ba! - really!! (used to express surprise)
From : Fedilia Sandra Fedilis.
Monday, October 6, 2008
no mud no bday party.
Aku skt ati.Entah knp.Sa mls la mau buat bday party sa.X payala tu.Biarla.Sa hrp dis month berlalu dgn cepat.shit oo.Mls ni tba2.
Friday, October 3, 2008
CRUSH CRUSH.
No guy is worth your tears & when you find one that is, he won't make you cry.
Everyone says you only fall in love once but that's not true, every time I hear your voice I fall in love all over again.
When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you I m afraid to lose you.
(A KISS BLOWN IS A KISS WASTED THE ONLY REALLY KINDA KISS IS A KISS TASTED)
Love Is When You Don't Want To Go To Sleep Because Reality Is Better Than A Dream.
If you love me like you told me please be careful with my heart you can take it; just don't break it or my world will fall apart.
Live as if you'll die tomorrow.
*Somewhere There's.
*Someone Who Dreams Of Your Smile, And Finds In Your Presence That Life Is Worth While, so When You Are Lonely, Remember It's True: Somebody, Somewhere Is Thinking Of You and it's me.
* Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :)
*You can fall from the sky .You can fall from a tree.But the best way to fall Is in love with me.
(If You Luv Me.Let Me Know.If You Don't.Then Let Me Go.I loved you once .If you loved me not.I loved you twice.But I forgot.You never loved me.You never will.But even so.I love you still.Tell me if you love me.Tell me if Its true.Let me be yours forever.And forever it will be me and you.)
Missing someone.Shhhhh.
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I miss u.
Everything about u.
Ur voice.
The way u talk to me.
The way u told me u missing me.
The way it made me feel.
I miss ur cute laugh.
I miss hearing ur voice.
The way used to ask me anything.
And gettin mad me for not answerin them.
I miss u.
I wish u were here.
And felt the same feelin.
I just miss everything about u.
Where are u???
I'm so tired of all this.
P/S:: If this is a crush, then I don't know if I could take the real thing if it happens.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Badjet dis month.
Waawawwawawa.This month mesti simpan money.Tp bykla mau guna money dis month.
Lebih byk dr yg sblum2nya.Wawawawa.Gila eh.
Lebih byk dr yg sblum2nya.Wawawawa.Gila eh.
1. Bday party.
2. Byr Hp.
3. Mama.
4. Beli kasut.Gila.(PADINI SALES!!!!!) & Its my bday man.
Disct.30% with member card.Aku Member.
5. Brg2 keperluan.
CCCccccccc!!! wat i mean.Mcm mana mau simpan $$$$??
Gila owh.Trouble ni.
Almighty GOD whre r u??
Come come i need u nw.So badly.
Sa harap time bday sa,dpt hadiah 1 juta.Wahahahahaha.Sot.
Bt,seriously man.I need to jaga my kewangan dis time.
& Stop buying brg2 yg x diperlukan.Bt suma yg sa beli is PENTING!!!
How la dis??Ngo oO.
Oh my.Okok.Shit ni.
END END END.
2. Byr Hp.
3. Mama.
4. Beli kasut.Gila.(PADINI SALES!!!!!) & Its my bday man.
Disct.30% with member card.Aku Member.
5. Brg2 keperluan.
CCCccccccc!!! wat i mean.Mcm mana mau simpan $$$$??
Gila owh.Trouble ni.
Almighty GOD whre r u??
Come come i need u nw.So badly.
Sa harap time bday sa,dpt hadiah 1 juta.Wahahahahaha.Sot.
Bt,seriously man.I need to jaga my kewangan dis time.
& Stop buying brg2 yg x diperlukan.Bt suma yg sa beli is PENTING!!!
How la dis??Ngo oO.
Oh my.Okok.Shit ni.
END END END.
Cuti raya yg okla.
Life beginnnnnnnnsssssssss..01/oct/08
11.00 a.m
Bangun dari tidur.Eha.New life's.Too late suda.New half life ni.Haha.
Stil baring2 lg d katil.
Pasang lap dgr music.
12.00 p.m +++
P mandi then cuci kain.
Siap.Jemur kain.Penat ni.
1.00 p.m +++
P mkn tp x mknan druma.
Mkn ja la apa ada.
Mee & Rebena.
1.30 p.m +++
Stay d blik.Baca buku,men games,typing sumthing & dgr music.
Actually x org druma.Only me & myself.Idk mana drg & what's more,i dont care.
2.00 p.m+++
TIDUR.
7.00 p.m+++
Bangun.
P mandi.
Tgk TV.
Msk tp x sdap.And plus x mud mau mkn.
sambil2 msg dgn evryone.Jef,syl,An....
Msging time is until 2.30 a.m +++++
Xtau apa ending msg cz tertidur.
P/s:: Cuti apa bha ni???Bgs lg sa bekerja d ladang rumput kasi mkn biri2.Lebih berbaloi.I wish i didnt have this kind of cutiiiii day nex time.It just ruining my life.
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